Tag: hrt

as a cis person, it confuses me how someone can be trans w/o any sort of dysphoria? like dysphoria means u are not comfortable with ur binary sex and how it does not relate w the way you see yourself but?? how can u be trans while being fine with that like??? sorry if it sounds rude I’m just confusion

‘gender dysphoria’ refers to a lot of things, none of which pertain to me. it could mean;

  • distress stemming from certain parts of your body
  • distress stemming from society’s treatment of you
  • and/or a feeling of ‘depersonalization’ from either

and i dont experience anything like that, i’m trans because my gender is different than the one imposed upon me. thats the definition of trans.

i started hrt bc i knew it was for me, it was my way of continuing my life forward, the same as many decisions i make

Hey sorry weird question about what’s probably an old post I found tag surfing- I saw you said you’re Very Non-Dysphoric and I was wondering if because of that you think if you were “cis” you’d still take the same path? I saw another blogger say that going on T and being trans has nothing to do w each other it was just a coincidence and was wondering if you felt a similar way I suppose. Hope you have a lovely day!!

uhh tbh ive never thought of it that way, my train of thought has always been im trans -> and hrt sounds right -> im a trans person on hrt

so although im not dysphoric, and i dont attribute my transness to a ‘need’ for hrt, my hrt regime isn’t for any other context other than my transness

aka i take hrt also because i foresee a different-looking body for me that aligned with what people think ‘androgynous’. and not just because ive been interested in it for so long

so yeah probably, but tbh i also think not so

hello! (i hope this is okay to ask ;; ) i’m starting to save up money for transitioning (chest surgery and t) and i’m trying to do my research on local resources like therapists and generally just how to go about everything and getting the process started but it’s a lot of info and i feel kinda overwhelmed. would you possibly be able to direct me towards something that could help me and/or give me any advice?

you have two basic options for hrt;

1) doctor’s prescription for ‘gender dysphoria’. you go to a licensed doctor or therapist (not a counselor or anyone without the right credentials to give prescriptions) and bring up hormone replacement therapy. 

getting prescriptions are a gamble, not just in hrt, but in anything. some doctors will grill you with really unnecessary questions to ‘determine’ whether you ‘need’ it. some will take your word for it, and help you regardless of your intentions. 

when my old doctor seemed a little off about giving me antidepressants, i just switched to another one that was much more respectful. that doctor was also the one who immediately agreed to sign a hrt prescription – the only reason why i didn’t take it was because i needed to move to chicago.

this method is specific for a prescription for gender dysphoria, but like many doctors, it depends on the person on whether they focus on dysphoria or not. 

2) you can also pursue informed consent hrt. clinics that offer informed consent for hrt are dotted throughout the country, but they won’t be everywhere. i found one in chicago called the howard brown center, which is just like any clinic with doctors and so on. but the prescription won’t hinge on dysphoria, and instead you just pick up the bottle that very afternoon.

i cycled through three different doctors in the howard brown center, and none of them asked me about dysphoria (unless they were doing a pelvic exam, in which they ensured that they’d do their best to minimize potential discomfort). 

as for costs – with my student insurance, it covers hrt, but im left with 60$ every five-seven months to pay for the rest. you’ll probably also pay for the needles and other accessories. without insurance, hrt can inflate to 200-500$.

T Update 16 Months

  • according to last week’s blood test, T levels are too high on .5 ml, and were recycled into estrogen (haha oops) so i’m back on .3 ml
  • at the slow rate things are going, hormone blockers are becoming a possibility in the future
  • i am currently 185 lb??? which is 65 pounds more than when i started. however i gained only 1.5 pant sizes. i was 170 when i was 14, and looked a lot bigger than what i do now
  • i can no longer maintain a lovely long nail manicure due to constant breakage and flaking, hopefully that’s because of the T and not because i lost my mojo for having nice nails
  • my facial hair is now growing at a fast pace, will become visible stubs after a day

some selfies, looking at my face after the effects of t… less fat in cheeks, but it’s like it all melted to make a double chin lmao

under cut is a picture of my penis after 5-6 months of t, plus some musings. warning; explicit

this is the clit soft, and it’s roughly twice the size of what it once was. the dip of the clit fold had slowly grown to resemble a urethra on the end of the head. the foreskin does retreat when hard, and it also grows to the length longer than a phalange. it’s not able to peek from the vaginal flaps, but it does have limited penetration abilities

(those lumps are why i took the picture in the first place lmao. i had discovered those lumps and took pictures in preparation for a medical enquiry. to this day, i never found out what they were)